Life...

“Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.”

- Helen Keller

I feel like a teenager when it comes to guys.  After my "head over heels in love with Mike post", i've been debating on whether or not I should delete it.  Of course things did not turn out as I had hoped.  Mike actually moved out here and then cheated on me and got caught.  He ended up moving back to Ohio and most of his stuff is still here in Utah at my home.  This happened mid November.  I've felt like such a fool and like such a kid for not seeing things more clearly.  But i've decided to leave my post up to remind me.  It's ok to really like someone and to even fall for them.  I don't want to become one of those bitter women, that hate men.  I am trying my best to learn from the situation and move on.

Its funny... I was at my brothers house a few nights ago and he referred to me as one of the kids.  His wife said that he thinks of me as one of the kids because of my "man" situation.  Because I date a lot and talk with guys and have things happen, like his 18 year old daughter does.  It makes me laugh, but in a way it really sucks because I hate being at this age (37 nearly 38) and feeling like my life has had to start all over.

I have so much to be thankful for though.  I have wonderful amazing children that make me smile everyday.  We have our struggles, but I can't imagine my life without them.  They give my life purpose and meaning and there are days where that is the only thing that keeps me going.